Mendham Nov 4^th 1835
My Dear Brother,
It is now running nigh on two months
since I received your kind letter, and I have not yet
reciprocated your attention. But the reason is not be-
cause I do not appreciate your kindness or the interest
which you feel in my behalf — I was not in a writing
humour. My mind has been such that if I attempted
it, I would write something, which a cooler judgment &
more better feelings would forbid — I have not felt
willing to trouble you more with my perverse and
morbid passions — My present situation, the result
of many causes and circumstances, is perhaps ne-
cessary for my future security and welfare, and as
such I am reconciled to it.
It will not be considered that I intend any dis-
paragement when I say of these people here that
they are not competent to judge of my character
and course of conduct and the condition in which I now
am placed as the consequence of it. There are things about
it they do not understand, and have thrown a degree of
blame and censure upon me amounting to enmination
there are many things which I do and shall regret so
long as I live, but that it is entirely the consequence
of my own perverse disposition I believe not to be
so, they have considered me most criminal, and not
only this but have applied to me the epithet of a fool
they have considered me as thrown off by my friends as
unworthy of regard and confidence — and their treatment

as human nature would prompt, and such as it has been I
have been obliged to bear, but since you hwas here, and since
Fathers visit, they have taking a turn and are now willing
to believe that I am not reduced so low in the dust as they
apprehended. I feel now that I have acquired such a
knowledge of myself and the reasons in the case that
I am able to understand all, and to duly appreciate it.
My course is rather plainly before me, I have been on
a recent visit at home and never did I enjoy a visit
so much. My Father and Mother was kind and attentive
they are deeply interested in my welfare, and will be
glad to see us prosper he assured me that my prospects
for the future was auspicious, that he reposed confidence
in me, and gave me the some directions and plans which
he wished me to remember and practice towards, ^those^ whom
he has given the promise that t ^there^ should be no mater-
ial change in their business under another state of affairs
I mention this because you have thought it would be so
After that I shall endeavor to merit the confidence
of my friends, and not to do any thing which shall dis-
grace them — We were also much gratified with the
reception we met with from the people —
Our business at this time is increasing a trade for
some time past is increasing and gives us hope for the
coming season — —
Jennings was among other business was to settle a
note with Isaac Jennings of $180, and was to receive of fFather
about $100 and $280 from me. Father refuses to pay him
and he has expended the remainder, and Isaac is not paid
I consider that his money is safe, and if you would, I
wish that you would say to him that it will be paid

When I saw Jennings last he promised that he would
write to Isaac and explain the circumstance to him
and he [ though ] that you would also do the same —
I do not know that the Doct can much about
it, but his family is anxious that you should, they con-
sider it rather as a send those notes down to me.
as they have an idea that it may come on me yet
and perhaps break the store or be attended with some
other most disasttrious consequences — at the same time
you may be aprised that I shall hold myself ready
and willing to pay them whenever I shall be able
and it is convenient, I have seen by the papers the
death of Mrs Miller
I have reason to re-
member her with
gratitude, whilst it is the dictate of af-
fection and sympathy to mourn your lost, you cannot
but rejoice over her great gain. We are anxious to
hear from Frances, to her the shock must have been great
I hope that she has continued to improve in health —
Doct Liddel and his family goes tomorrow to attend
the funeral of Mrs. Salter an a Sister of Mrs L who has suf-
fered a long time with the Dropsy —
Our Little Sarah C. has altered much for the better
since you were here. She has grown and fatted up —
W H. continues to grow —
In two weeks the Church in Mendham is to be ded-
icated — — — Remember me to Frances, Clara —
Your Affectionate Brother GWS

Mendham NJ
Nov 11^th 1835
William H Seward
Auburn
New York
hG. W. Seward
1835